So the "sermon" haha God gave me started when we were playing would you rather, where you ask people if they would rather do something or something else, like eat worms or eat dirt I dunno something like that.  I was trying to think of one and I started off with would you rather have a day without consequences or...and I couldn't think of a second thing.  That night I was thinking about what I would do with a day without consequences.  I started thinking about all the sins I would indulge in.  I would go slap all the people who have annoyed me in the face, I would definitely try drugs, drink, and I'm sure you can think of many more things to do on a day without consequences.  God totally convicted me of those thoughts.  Basically I was saying the only reason I serve you God is because I am afraid of the consequences.  God showed me that I thought this because I have a messed up view of who God is.  If I saw God for who he really was I would know that there is absolutely nothing better then spending time with him and worshiping him.  That is what we were designed for and when we live for our purpose it is better than drugs, or gossiping or any other thing on earth.  Being with God is better!  Not just in the long run, but right now!!!!  Yes the reward may be even greater in the long run, but serving God right now is the best thing we can do. 

This may have been why I struggle with holiness.  I say I want to be Holy, but time and time again I fall.  Truth is in my heart I desired to sin all along.  I believe that when we desire sin, but are good at not doing the action it is like trying to hold corks under water.  When the corks are constantly trying to surface eventually they will...SIN. 

As I was telling the guys about this (more or less I'm sure I added some stuff in this blog) I tied it in to how Frank was just trying not to disobey the rules for fear of the consequences and how that worked for like 4 months, but eventually he messed up because the was really the desire of his heart.  I told people that if they wanted to experience something better than all that they could come up and receive Christ.  It was really awesome!!   So that night when I was thinking about the things I said, I wondered how a person like me who knows Christ still could desire sin.  So after I prayed about it and had devotion a felt like God gave me another sermon.  I'm not sure if it will be more helpful for me to write it, or for you to hear it, but I will write it in my next blog.